My heart goes out to you. My first concern is that you tell someone else immediately. If you are a youth tell you parents or a trusted adult. If you are an adult tell another trusted adult and seek legal or professional assistance. If you feel you have no one to turn to, by all means communicate with God. Your pastor can help you. If you cannot talk to a pastor I will be happy to guide you in this regard. It is for this purpose that God has chosen me. In fact, it is the very reason that God has led me to create “YME” – to let you know that he cares. It is he that can be your refuge and deliver you from the oppressor.
I can imagine that like “targeted individuals” or some in the LGBT community, your overwhelming feeling towards your victimizer is one of anger or hatred or a desire for revenge. You should know that these emotions, though they are real and painful, are what “binds” you and gives your victimizer control over you. It is like something eating away at you from the inside. Fear, worry, and isolation can be a terrible chain that binds. God can break the chain that binds you – you can be “loosed” or set free. Know that your victimizer thrives on your fear, worry and isolation. By the grace of God, you can turn the tables and take back control of your life. Resolve to be free. Seize the power of God. Say today “Whom God sets free is free indeed” (John 8:36). Repeat this every day and see the selected scripture prepared for you. You see, someone greater than you or me cares, and because he cares he has CHOSEN you to be free and spread his message of love.
